How paradoxical it is that we are ambitious but also find anonymity appealing, my friend said to me as she gazed nonchalantly at the black ceiling, again, and again. She had stared at the ceiling yesterday, too. And the day before that. And the day before the day before...
He tapped his forehead with his pen; seldom had he found it so difficult to put his thoughts into words. Although he had observed that putting thoughts into words had become a little more cumbersome for him, of late, mostly because he was doing other things.
Thinking about other things. And people.
Person, actually.
Was he fooling himself? He would probably never know.
It was two in the morning, yet here he was (idly twiddling his thumbs to match the beat of the song that played in his head, as ever), imagining another life, in which anything was or could have been possible.
Possibilities--the word was as scary as it was exciting. But isn't that what life was all about? Scariness and excitement? Of course, he could be wrong, but that wasn't the point. The point was that he could be.
The past year had gone by pretty uneventfully (pretty--what an oxymoronic word to use), oh, except for one thing. He would rather not be reminded of it. The past month, however, had been, quite contrarily to the general trend (graph) of his life (versus time), extremely eventful. The past month had been an enigma he was still trying to make sense of.
She was someone he was still trying to make sense of. How could someone who looked so small and wonder-less (but somebody would surely find her wonderful, no doubt) write something that stirred within him such unimaginable feelings of kinship, and regret, and admiration, and emptiness? So much to feel, and so little time! She was a rollercoaster, and he was a slow-moving horse-coach that, instead of horses, was being pulled by donkeys, of all beings. Not a perfect match (not even to be friends, much--or so he thought. Of course, there were other, more important things, that he held dearer to his heart, that beckoned him to talk to her every day).
But friendship and love is seldom about matching. Friendship is about staying even when you don't match. Friendship is about tearing your paper heart in half, and giving one half to your friend if his heart is broken. Friendship is about crusading silently, caped; masquerading as the Dark Knight for this one person in your life, because...because they are special. Special, and no more, no less. Friendship is about being the unlikely superhero for an irreplaceable person. True friendship, and true love: both of these do not pull you down. You grow with them.
You might stay away from the other person for a couple of days, weeks, months, or maybe even many years, but when you see them again--it feels like you've come home. Because you are home. Those moments, those times you shared together--they are unforgettable, as if you only lived them yesterday. And this is what friends are for, isn't it?
She smiled, and ran her hand through his hair. He had fallen asleep on his diary, and his pen lay besides the window, almost invisibly, as if it held the night to be of no consequence whatsoever...again.
He tapped his forehead with his pen; seldom had he found it so difficult to put his thoughts into words. Although he had observed that putting thoughts into words had become a little more cumbersome for him, of late, mostly because he was doing other things.
Thinking about other things. And people.
Person, actually.
Was he fooling himself? He would probably never know.
It was two in the morning, yet here he was (idly twiddling his thumbs to match the beat of the song that played in his head, as ever), imagining another life, in which anything was or could have been possible.
Possibilities--the word was as scary as it was exciting. But isn't that what life was all about? Scariness and excitement? Of course, he could be wrong, but that wasn't the point. The point was that he could be.
The past year had gone by pretty uneventfully (pretty--what an oxymoronic word to use), oh, except for one thing. He would rather not be reminded of it. The past month, however, had been, quite contrarily to the general trend (graph) of his life (versus time), extremely eventful. The past month had been an enigma he was still trying to make sense of.
She was someone he was still trying to make sense of. How could someone who looked so small and wonder-less (but somebody would surely find her wonderful, no doubt) write something that stirred within him such unimaginable feelings of kinship, and regret, and admiration, and emptiness? So much to feel, and so little time! She was a rollercoaster, and he was a slow-moving horse-coach that, instead of horses, was being pulled by donkeys, of all beings. Not a perfect match (not even to be friends, much--or so he thought. Of course, there were other, more important things, that he held dearer to his heart, that beckoned him to talk to her every day).
But friendship and love is seldom about matching. Friendship is about staying even when you don't match. Friendship is about tearing your paper heart in half, and giving one half to your friend if his heart is broken. Friendship is about crusading silently, caped; masquerading as the Dark Knight for this one person in your life, because...because they are special. Special, and no more, no less. Friendship is about being the unlikely superhero for an irreplaceable person. True friendship, and true love: both of these do not pull you down. You grow with them.
You might stay away from the other person for a couple of days, weeks, months, or maybe even many years, but when you see them again--it feels like you've come home. Because you are home. Those moments, those times you shared together--they are unforgettable, as if you only lived them yesterday. And this is what friends are for, isn't it?
She smiled, and ran her hand through his hair. He had fallen asleep on his diary, and his pen lay besides the window, almost invisibly, as if it held the night to be of no consequence whatsoever...again.
~
Little by little, inch by inch
We built a yard with a garden in the middle of it
It ain't much but it's a start
You got me swaying right along to the song in your heart
And a face to call home
A face to call home
You got a face to call home.
We built a yard with a garden in the middle of it
It ain't much but it's a start
You got me swaying right along to the song in your heart
And a face to call home
A face to call home
You got a face to call home.
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